Wednesday, December 29, 2010


It almost 4 am and I couldn't get my eyes close or maybe I just got a nap just evening. Today, I'd read my 13, 14, 15,16, 17, 18 years old diaries and I'd never missed one. how dramatic I was hahhaha haaa gelak macam orang gila sampai nangis-nangis uuuuhh seriously, you have no idea what I'd been through like nuisance and surprising, I also invented a new 'alphabets' for my diaries.-out of fear that some people read.

And, this is not about new year, this is about how strong we are in facing everything that has happened; even rough and thin ones and it depends on us how do we solve the problem that befall. Another reason you should be sad off because you've been a great girl or woman within this year; eventhough to yourself or the other part- others would hate you like hell. I am very glad that I just got what I should have; God, family and bestfriends with lotsa lotsa love.

And you know you are a Woman when....

As a girl you used to dress for the boys. kan kan kan
As a woman you will dress for other women and yourself.

As a girl you used to look for a job that will make you happy; and of course I will do that, who wouldn't?
As a woman you will find happiness in your work, whatever it is (err I will take a note and consider it soon he he)

As a girl you used to go for the cutest guy a girl like you could find.
As a woman you will go for the smartest guy ( oh and maybe cute a little-because I am so not care) a woman like you can find.

As a girl you used to get by with fast food, slimming belts and four hours of sleep (just like me now)
As a woman you will watch your diet, exercise regularly and make sure you rest well.

that girl was me, I was 62kg at my 14 ages! Imagine that, how fat I was and now people would ask me, "how on earth you get this thin?" and I'm like, " Actually, I'm not thin. I look skinny maybe because I am good in height which at 172cm currently and I love to wear something loose and slob or maybe I have a long hair that I might look....." ok cut-off all the humbleness Alia because I know you were screaming in your brain like " hell yeaaahhhhhh!". OK. here's the real, I have a huge hips and it looks like 'labu sayong' ( Y ) <--(this probably look like boobs but seriously folks, I just wanna show you my annoying humps. can you get it, its humps kan?)

here's the picture of me

huwalaa. and a friend of mine was crazy about it! ;D nangis

As a girl you used to shop, shop and, er shop.
As a woman you will earn, budget, shop and save.

Just like Musfy told me what Will Smith says about money. "Too many people spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't want, to impress people they don't like". Obviously, there is a lotsa lotsa people doing that kind of thing. And also what Shamira said, "Stop chasing trend because trend won't love you back". and I am hundred percent agreed with that. beside, they just ruin yourself and make your life miserable. I'm just saying.

As a girl you used to argue or give in; bluster and fight.
As a woman you will speak-up or compromise; listen and apologize.

Unfortunately, girls rarely realize how valuable family and friends are until they are gone. It happened to me when I always wanted to lari rumah like "Arghhh benci benci nak lari rumah, tak nak balik daaa". aduhh hey hey hey it was okay but like alwayssssss! ha ha ha

Woman, however, learn to hang on to the good people in their lives in spite of all their little disagreements - the world is a nasty place full of liars and users and manipulators, yes manipulators!, and you take what you can get. if that means making compromises now and then, so be it. And if it means walking away to save yourself grief, so be it, too.

Revised back all just happened and I also been intended by some people say, 'mostly, people won't even realized what mistakes they did and people won't learn from mistakes'. Its not about others, it is about yourself. so now I'm gonna pull-off the words and start with the new one like when anything bad just happened and you don't even mean to be with it, just tell this to yourself,:
"That was a humbling experience, and that is what defines a woman to me: humility".
trust me and you can get even better :)

And now I know, on the journey of life just find someone as normal as you. if not a whole bunch :) For those who has a few friends like me, don't even bother it anymore as long as you are happy and good in your amount. yaaaaaayyy